A new start

Ok, I haven't blogged in FOREVER!!!  Love to write but it's been awhile since I was in the blogging world. So here goes again. I use to love to do it and my girl Ashley has gotten me started again.

I don't neccesarily blog about any one subject or another; I just blog!!  So, if you don't care, don't read!!

So this first blog is going to cover it all, me, growing up, hard times, happy times, and where I am today and why I am so thankful to be where I am.

First warning with this blog is the truth will come out...so if you don't want to know some truths about some people and situations; I suggest you stop reading now. :)

My name is Amanda Lynn Medford, I'm 24 and will be turning the dreaded 25 on December 1st!!!!  I was born in Beaufort, SC in 1985 to Jeff and Ellie Medford.  I lived in Beaufort for a little while, then we moved to Oklahoma where my Daddy went to Air traffic control...Then it was on to TN; there my parents had my brother.  After a few years there we moved to Alexis, NC where I started school. Then it was on to Rutherford County where I got stuck....that is what I use to feel like, stuck.

I went to Ellenboro, East middle, and East high school.  Made friends, had the usual teenage drama.  Had some good and bad relationships.  My junior year I met Danny who I married at the age of 19 and he was 22.  The thing about the marriage is that it was NEVER meant to be.  I cared for him and he use to be a good man, but he had an issue with accepting me as his wife, to honor me and realize that I had to take some kind of priority in his life. After about a year of that; I knew I was never going to be as much to him as I should have been.  We had very many struggles in marriage and none of them ever resolved.

April 3rd of 2009 I walked out.  I left and left it all behind. I was willing to take the bad mouthing, the blame, and all the struggles just to seek some kind of happiness. I in that time made a good many bad decisions along the way.  Dated a person I should have never come to date. BUT.....

one thing that came out of dating that person was.....true love and happiness.  Everything I had been searching for was now right in front of me.  It seemed too easy, it seemed to be a trick!!  I was convinced that love couldn't appear this easy.  He was my best friend LONG before he was my boyfriend.  He had been with me through a lot in a short time and always seem to know when and I needed him; even if I didn't say it.

I spent many nights thinking about him and why   I couldn't seem to get through a day without "needing" him. So after a couple months of being friends and hanging out we decided to date, but not so seriously.

It was too late.....I had already grow to love him and had fallen in love with him before I knew it.  Everything he did seemed amazing, but I didn't trusts him with my heart.  Everyone had taken pieces of it and never gave the pieces back.  I couldn't give another piece away.

So I built walls; never letting him know exactly what he meant to me; which was a mistake on my part and caused mistakes to be made on his part.

After a couple incidents of hurt and a serious conversation; we knew that we were right for each other and it was time to get on that track.

I have been through it all with relationships....I had my first heart break, my first crush, the abusive your not good enough, and the you'll never compare and I'm not off mom's breast milk relationship.  (seriously, the last of them all was the worst!)  LOL.

David is gentle, he is strong, he sensitive, but he is hard enough.  David loves me completely, he stands up for me, he goes against the world WITH me.  We are truly a team. He works with me and is at times patient with me. David was the first thing in the new start to my new life.

I had a new job; I was getting out of Rutherford County; and he was right there with me to help with the adjustment.  I had the man I had always dreamed of.

Now the next step in our life together is approaching in almost 8 months and I care about nothing but being his wife and growing old with him. HE supports me when I need it; he listens when I need it; and he has become my everything!!

David is successful and he works hard for everything. Not a day goes by that I don't look at him and think of how proud I am and how lucky I am to be his

Now, don't get me wrong; he has his faults and his flaws, but that is what makes him perfect for me.

I finally have someone that I can talk to and a team mate who will work with me and not against me in life.

So....David Henry Lester Jr.........know that you are my world, every time I pray, I thank God for you and ask that he make me into what you want and have dreamed of!!!!